Baby Blues

I am due to go back to work at the end of the month. I have so enjoyed my time with my lovely Daughter and am so pleased I took the whole year.

I have looked at five different nursery places and done two inductions at two different places and although I was resigned to the fact that my Daughter would be there for only one day a week I really did not feel great about it, what if she needs me? What if she doesn't get the cuddles that she needs?

In theory I like the idea of nursery, getting to interact with lots of new people and Babies, social skills, structured play and different/messier play than we may do at home.

I had a knot in my stomach at the thought of leaving her and at the final hour my Mother in Law said she would have her. My Mother is having her the other day and a half.

Grandmothers and Mothers are cool.

Going back to work again may be cool.

Leaving my precious Baby with strangers who although doing a great job can't love my child like me is difficult and perhaps in time may be cool also!

I am so going to be one of those neurotic Mums, what do I mean I am going to be, I am!